When something is not attained, is it the yearning that makes us sad or is it just the bruised ego? I guess there is a little bit of both. When we have done everything right in our power it keeps us wondering what went wrong. Then another thought crossed my mind. There is another part (a very important one) played by comparison. It is the root of dissatisfaction, jealousy and despair. I’ve learnt now that I need to focus on what’s there in store for me in the future which is filled with pristine beauty and suits me well in more ways than one. There’s just teeny tiny itsy bitsy wee thing that bothers me. The fellowship. But I know that I’ll work hard enough and make contacts and impress everyone which will lead to declaration of my true self and worth. Eventually I’ll get whatever I want in life in the bigger picture. Eventually it’s all about perspective. Eventually it’s all about what you make out of what you already have.